Your brain has other plans.
There is a particular kind of silence that only seems to exist when you're supposed to be falling asleep.
The lights are off. The television is off. Nobody is asking anything of you. There are no emails to answer, conversations to have or places you need to be.
The world has finally stopped demanding your attention.
Apparently, your brain has been waiting patiently for its turn.
Suddenly you're thinking about something you forgot to do three days ago. A conversation that felt slightly off. Something you need to remember tomorrow. A decision you haven't made yet.
Then, without warning, you're contemplating your entire existence.
None of this seemed particularly urgent at 3PM, but at midnight, it feels enormous.
Your brain didn't suddenly get louder
During the day, your thoughts have competition.
You're moving through conversations, work, traffic, screens and decisions. Your attention is constantly being pulled outward toward whatever is happening around you.
Then you get into bed and most of that disappears.
The room gets dark.
Your body gets still.
The outside world gets quiet enough for you to hear what's been happening inside your head all along.
And there's the real problem.
There's very little you can actually do about most of them at this moment.
Then the clock gets involved
This is where thinking can turn into sleep anxiety.
You notice you're still awake.
You check the time.
12:17.
Fine.
There's still plenty of night left.
Eventually you check again.
12:48.
Now you're doing math.
If I fall asleep right now, I can still get...
And there it is.
Sleep has become a deadline.
The thought that originally kept you awake isn't even necessarily the problem anymore. Now you're worried about being awake.
Why can't I fall asleep?
How tired am I going to be tomorrow?
What if this happens again tomorrow night?
Your attention shifts from whatever you were thinking about to monitoring whether you're sleeping yet.
And nothing makes being awake feel quite as significant as repeatedly checking whether you're still awake.
The nighttime amplification effect
Problems have a different scale in the dark.
A concern becomes a problem.
The problem becomes a scenario.
The scenario becomes five possible scenarios.
And somewhere around 2AM, you've constructed an entire future based on something that hasn't happened.
You don't have to solve it tonight
This is the part I've found most useful about nighttime thoughts:
A thought can be important without being actionable right now.
Those are not the same thing.
If there's something you genuinely need to remember, write it down.
Not a journal entry.
Not a processing exercise.
Not another elaborate nighttime ritual.
A sentence.
Email Sarah tomorrow.
Look at the bank account.
Writing it down isn't solving the problem.
It's telling your brain:
I don't need to hold onto this so I remember it tomorrow.
The thought has somewhere else to live for the night.
Quiet doesn't mean empty
We put a lot of pressure on the idea of a quiet mind. Especially around bedtime.
We imagine that the correct state before falling asleep is some perfectly blank internal landscape where nothing bothers us, nothing needs us and our thoughts have politely shut themselves down for the evening.
That's not how minds work.
Thoughts will show up. The difference is recognizing that every thought doesn't require a response.
You can notice something without solving it, remember something without dealing with it and worry about something without following the worry all the way to the end.
The world has gone quiet.
Your mind hasn't.
That doesn't mean you need to answer everything it has to say.
-DAWN MELODY
Sleep Architect + Founder, Sleep State of Mind
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THE SPACE BETWEEN AWAKE AND ASLEEP
